“Our hearts are restless until they rest in You.” St. Augustine
Today, I’m feeling a bit restless – in mind and heart. It’s been one of those days when nothing seems to satisfy. There are many days when all I want is “peace and quiet,” but even silence feels uneasy today. The donut that I tried to reward myself with this morning was o.k. at best – total waste of calories! Completing my preparations at school did not give me the great feeling of accomplishment I had hoped for. I thought I’d indulge in an hour-long television program and rest for a bit, but the show was just depressing. The weather has been a bit dreary for several days. Maybe it’s the lack of sunshine painting my world grey.
If I am truthful with myself, I’d have to admit that absolutely nothing of this earth could fulfill my deepest desires. I long to be connected – to feel deep relaxation, safety – Peace. I’m in need of some Sonshine (not to be corny). I’ve been so busy with the kids and with work that I’m not making enough time for prayer. I know that I will be forever restless until I rest in God – in heaven. I’m craving just a little bit of that heaven right now. Come Lord Jesus!